Family = <3

It's been awile....
Thanksgiving was werid as hell. Half my family now thinks I'm gay -_-...mainly 'cause I told them I was to get them to shut the fuck up. Anywho the next day me and Collin went to eat at IHOP with my crazy family before heading off to the mall to meet Jenny. I got a hair straightener....Um...yeah
So this christmas I got a laptop. IT SOO SMEXY! My brother got a Wii . I also got an mp3 player from my uncle John! So I like have no reason to ever get out of bed again since I got wireless :P Took us forever to figure out how the hell to turn it on.
Anywho I have a new obsession and OH MY GOD have I been obsessing. I like can't get enough!!!
ITS NARUTO X SASUKE
Thursday I went a saw Happy Feet with Shelby. Then after we came back to my house and ate at Taco Bell. Then we went to the park and talked about our furture together (non sexual). It was great.
Also found out that one of my guy friends was raped last week. This got to me real bad. Rape is something no one should ever have to go through. It makes me feel so useless cause all I can do is "be there" for him. I want to do more!! I want to take his pain away. If I could I would take his pain and make it my own if it would help. Oh well.

Is that you're face?

So I like got to trick~or~treat this Halloween. ^_^ Urber Fun! I went with Jenny, Collin, and Jenny's friend Corie.

The day before that I went to the Book 2 Movie with Collin. I had to go look for him cause he didn't hear me when I told him to meet me in the front. I was like 'OMG he forgot' and of course the last place I looked was out at the busses -_-. I was pissed but not for long ^^ It was really fun. The movie was nothing like the book except the fact that one of the chicks climbed out a window. After it was like dark so me and Collin went and walked over to the 9th grade center. When we walked by the pratice feild we heard something hitting metal and we were all ' WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!!' It was funny. Then we went and walked in the pratice feild and saw a huge ass owl!! And then it started flappin its wings and I screamed ^^

So found out that I only have to do thearpy till January. I guess thats good cause it means days like yesterday wont happen...I hope. Me, my dad and my "mom" all went yesterday which was a first. Anyway everytime my me or my dad would say something she would twist it and start crying. I really wanted to slap her. And she kept trying to make me this really bad person who likes to cause pain to people and all this other random ass shit and everytime my dad would defend me she would starts crying...again. And then my thearapist (amy) made a point that resecpt has to be earned and asked me why I didnt see that she deserved it. I told her that someone who plays victum will never have my resecpt GO ME ^^!!

Life in Hell

zomg my mom is CRAZY!!! shes being anti-family and she wont talk to anyone and she wont cook for anyone which sucks for my cause i am like banned from the kitchen.

Cooked my first "meal" friday. And for once it didnt catch on fire. GO ME!!!

Well atleast tomorrow will be monday and I'll get to go back to school.

She's crazy

Life in Hell

zomg my mom is CRAZY!!! shes being anti-family and she wont talk to anyone and she wont cook for anyone which sucks for my cause i am like banned from the kitchen.

Cooked my first "meal" friday. And for once it didnt catch on fire. GO ME!!!

Well atleast tomorrow will be monday and I'll get to go back to school.

She's crazy

The High in my Life

So today was really fun...

Me, Jenny, and Collin all went to eat at TacoBell after school. I got to "talk" to Mason who I haven't really talk to in awhile and Jenny made a mess    

Anywho so after that we went and visited Collins old apartments which was kinda cool cause I'v alwasy wanted to go in there. After that we went to the part but there where little kids so we went and sat down in this grass thing and took ugly/cute pictures

Then like after some of the kids left we decided to go play and we all went on the slide together which, when you think about it, wasn't the best idea. We when we went down, SOMEHOW, Collin ended up sitting on my hair and me and Collin have BAD communication skills apparently so I'm pretty sure a BIG clump of my hair is like... still there. Anywho after that I got a headach and got dizzy. Like when you are lying down for a long time and get up fast and like for a second your head hurts and you gett really dizzy, I had that. So Collin and Jenny had to help me walk home which, once again, not one of the best ideas cause Jenny needs someone to help her walk 24/7. (LOVE YOU JENNY) So jenny tripped and I tripped and hit my knee on the sidewalk so now my knee is just this one BIG burise. So when we got home I felt a bit better so we went on my trampolin and just kinda died on it. After awhile we started talkin, or rather, Jenny and Collin started talkin and I just sat there having urber amounts of fun palying with Collins hair. But then, of course, my mom has to come end it.

DEATH TO HER

*Ignore*

*~I didn't think it was possible to love you than I already do but everyday I prove myself wrong because I fall more in love with you as each day goes by.~*


[[ I'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong, Talk like everything's perfect, Act like it's just a dream, and pretend he's not hurting me. ]]


You Hold Me [Together] When My World Falls A p a r t


WHEN JUST THE THOUGHT OF LOSING HIM BRINGS TEARS TO YOUR EYES THEN U KNOW ITS REALIf



You Don't Understand My Silence....You'll Never Understand My Words.

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This is what I do so I dont have to listen to my english teacher make a fool of herself

Superman Died

You know I keep hearing of these people dying and yeah, you hear about it all the time but this time...I dont know. Steve Irwin's death just got me really thinking about how short life really is and how cruel fate is. I always viewed him kinda like a superman, doing all the crazy shit that he did and you know its like he is the LAST person you would evey expect to hear had died but...he's gone. What if tomorrow you or me or the person thats sits across from you in math just died, as in stopped breathing. What would we regreat. What would have we done diferently. What if today was your last day being alive. What would you do? What could you do now so that, when the time comes, you have no regrets.I wonder what Steve regreats. Maybe that he didnt get to see his son's 5th birthday, or his daughters wedding.For the past 4 years or so the only thing I lived for was Harry Potter. Although it sounds lame it kept me going. Wanting to live on to see what happens next. Now that the final book is soon due. I have other reasons to live. Friends who truly care, and all that jazz. But what if that was taken away. What if death came unto them.I truly dont know how to take this.Surperman died

Update

Thursday, Aug. 24
So today was very dramatic. There was a "gang" fight today at my school. Ok so I forgot my purse at lunch so I was going back to the cafe. to find it. So as I'm walking down the walk was some dude runs past me followed by a cop. So I keep going and i get to the mall area and see 2 dudes on the floor in handcuffs and another getting arrested. One of the dudes on the floor had blood on his shirt. I really couldnt give a shit what was happening I just wanted to find my purse. So i try walking by and so cop pinned me on the wall saying "where the fuck you going" SCARY. So I tell him I want to go find my purse and I guess he didnt want to deal with me so he pushed me away and said to hurry up. So I walk by the "fight" and I see the whole mall area is panicing and pushing people. I spot Conner in the crowed so I made my way to him trying to figure out what happen. He was no real help -_-Then I strarted having a REALLY hard time breathing and thought I was having another panic attack but then everyone started to cough. I think they used mace or tear gass or SOMETHING but it sucked. So I go look for my purse but didnt find it so I head back to the mall area where people were still having fits and once again I was pinned being told to go back to class. So as I TRY to get back I'm pushed by ANOTHER cop for not walking fast enough. Then they fucking got the dogs out and they were like trying to attack people. In the end I ended up being in the office having to be escorted back to my class by a cop in a bullet proof vest.

Saturday, Aug. 19
So Collin woke me up and came over and we went to see Pirates of the Caribbean with Shelby. It was a flippin cliff hanger!!! After that Collin came back to my house and then we went to go out to eat at this buffet. Then we went to a Kung Fu demo at C.D. It was cool!!! Wene we got home we played JANGA I won :P Then we went and jumped on my trampoline and played fought. It was crazy fun.

Friday, Aug. 18
So today me, Jenny, Keith, Collin, Conner, and Conners girlfriend Kristain went to see Talladega Nights. It was pretty funny. We got to see Megan, Shelby, and Mallory. After the movie we went to a corner store. The twins just fucking ran across the street!!! I thought they would fuckin DIE (that would have benn funny) I screamed while I ran. FUN FUN

What cha lookin at

OK so me, Keith, and Jenny went to the mall. We went to Hottopic first but didnt stay long cuz Jenny broke a display case so she wanted to LEAVE. So then we went here and there but I really needed to get shoes so I was like "I need shoes!!!" and some random ass guy turns around and looks at me and goes "I like shoes too. You put them on and they like take you places and your like WHOW" OMG that freakin scared the shit out of my so I just ran. Then we went to the GAP and some really gay guy was workin and Keith was all dont leave me. It was pretty funny. Then we went to this store with really good music so we danced all over the stores and people kept lookin at us like we were crazy. And so after that EVERY store we went in we danced like fools. We went into this REALLY preppy new store and like they played chatchy "emo" music and so we danced even MORE crazy in that one and it was funny cuz all the preps we like WTF?!?! So then we went into Abercrombie and Fitch and try to take pictures with the poster in front but some dude that worked there asked us not to molest their advertisment. FUNNY!! So we danced alot in that store too. :P Then my mom came and....ended it